So I Suck ..... Shut Up

wow... i really suck with consistency. lol i say i'll write everyday, and i don't. i say that i'll start running more often, i run like once and then stop again. Same thing with any other exercise... or anything else for that matter. lol Anyways... Well today was the first day of basketball tryouts, i thought i did pretty good, and they don't start cutting until tomorrow, so i'll keep you informed. lol after try outs my mum wasn't there so i went back inside to watch the boys. yum! =] lol and The pretty excited. i mean seriously, a holiday that's all about eating? =] now that's my kind of holiday. boy was trying out, and he kept looking at me. lol too bad i looked like crap, because i sweated all my make up off, and my hair was all frizzy, but oh well. he was sweaty too. lol but the difference is... i didn't mind that he was... he can pull it off. lol Anyways school's been okay, not as dramatic as usual -surprising, no?- but it's still school. it's almost Thanksgiving, so i'mlol it's in like what... 2, 3 days? yay. lol And that means Christmas -and my birthday =] - are all the closer. i hate being single during the holidays. seriously, it's all about cuddling and spending it with the people you love... *sigh* oh well i guess. K, i'm done bitching. lol I'm so excited on Friday, a whole bunch of my friends and i are going to see Happy Feet! hahaha we're dorks, but at least we don't deny it. lol i wanna see it SO bad. it looks so cute. =] hehe Anyways... so the guy from over the summer isn't talking to me again. i guess it shouldn't bother me, but it does. i still have feelings for him, and it blows because i know he doesn't feel the same way. and hey, maybe it's better that way. but still. it sucks. a simple hey, what's up? would be great, but no. of course not. nothing can be that easy. *yet, another sigh* Anyways.... i don't even know if i really want to make the basketball team. i mean, of course i do, if i don't i'm going to be so bored. but it's just kinda a whatever type thing. you know? i'm not as in love with basketball as i used to be, but i'm still trying my hardest, because maybe things will turn out for the best. i know God has a plan for me, and if it doesn't include basketball, oh well. i'll find something else. Jordan and i talked about getting jobs together, and that would be a lot of fun too, and i think at the moment, i'd rather do that than play basketball. i'd earn money -and Christmas is coming soon- and i'd be having fun. Ya, basketball is fun, but it's hard work. And i used to love that about it. i was waaay skinny last year, and i think i parcially owe it to baksetball, and i've gained -not a lot, but still- weight. which also sucks. whatever. we'll just see what happens. Brandi and i were talking, and we feel exactly the same. we don't have parents on the school bored like other people do, and we don't have older siblings that we can practice with, and who can help guide us. we babysit all the time, and that takes away from practicing basketball, like over the summer and stuff. Hm.... I guess i'll just have to wait and see. Write more later

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Kelsey