Bras and Broomsticks

It's a love/hate relationship. I love romance novels, especially when they're about kiddies my age, but at the same time I hate them. because you want that to happen to you and chances are, it's never gonna. I know i said i wasn't gonna let wanting a boyfriend take over my life, and it's not. i just really really want one. they make life easier. they're the reason to get outta be and get cute in the morning and the reason to answer the phone at night. they act like dorks and nerds, but we love them anyways. They can be the man-ly-est man ever and they know exactly how to make your heart melt. and probably the most important reason ever... they know our flaws and they love us anyways. Well, some of them do anyways... and the ones that don't can bite me. =] lol But seriously, they're always there for you and they know how to make things better. They love/like you for you. Period. There's nothing artificial about it. I want that. The stress-free relationship. Does it even exist? seriously. there's always someone mad that you're going out with someone and then things get nasty. *sigh* I read the sweetest poem just a couple minutes ago. My friend and this guy were totally in love last year, and then this year he goes to the same school as me, and she goes to a different school. they still feel the same way, but she has a boyfriend now. well, maybe not now but when she read this at first she did. Here's the Poem




My Greatest Fear
I'm in love with a girl, but I don't know if she knows it. Does she love me... Yes or no? Or does she not know how to show it? ... Do I deserve another try or does she think that I should die? I've known her since 2nd grade and I think about her everyday. I never want our frindship to fade, but friendship isn't the only way... I want to say I love you and if I said it you know its true. You know I'm always here for you. I'd let you cry in my arms all night, all night, all night, until you slept tight. Then I'd just stare at your beautiful face and that would be a memory I could never erase... So if you ever see me and i apear to be moody.. It's because I'm thinking about what could happen to her, or who could hurt her, but what's worse of all is she's in someone else's arms and I know that person will only cause her harm, so I want you to know that I'm always here and that you getting hurt is my greatest fear...


Uhm.... ya, how sweet is that? I mean seriously. Any girl would kill for that. And my bestest friend in the whole wide world has it. And i envy her like no other. Not only is he totally in love with her, but she's gorgeous. and level-headed. Ya, she's made some mistakes, but we all have, so i'm not gonna judge her for it. i'm sure i've made more and made worse, but she still loves me and i'll always love her. She's the type of best friend that i see us in 80 years sitting on a park bench talking about the way "the young people" dress. lol That's just the way we are. and we'd be laughing out asses off. Hah. Life seems so much easier when we were little.... and then it seems to be easy -well easier, anyways- when we're old. there's just so much in between time it's ridiculous. i recently got an email from my aunt. it was called "the dash" and it was talking about on a tombstone, how there's the year you were born and the year you died, and between the two years, there is a dash. and how it's not the years that matter, it's the dash that means the most to the people that were left behind and the memories the person that died shared. i think that's a great way to think about that. i know i had a point to telling you guys that, but now i can't remember. lol well, it's a good story anyways. =] Well, i better go. Write more later

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Kelsey